I am a wimp!

I know that there are many people dealing with much harder things out there than I am, but for me....today was hard. This weekend was hard. Ug!

Ever since I can remember, Bree has not been able to go #2! Her father has a hard time, and she has taken after him, and then there's the whole holding on to it thing. She just won't let it out. She holds it in. For weeks at a time too. She has only successfully gone once in the potty before this weekend. We sent her to preschool all year in a diaper. I mean, it was only for 2 & 1/2 hours at a time. One time the kids caught on and tried to tease her about her diaper, but the situation was quickly defused.

She will hold it in, until we fill her little body with Miralax and force the runs. And then by the time she has the runs for several days, we have to stop, because her bottom is so sore, she is screaming and kicking every time we change her diaper. Sometimes it even takes two of us to change her. And then the vicious cycle begins again.

Well, it's do or die time! She has to go to Kindergarten in two months! I just can't hold her back. She is so smart, and ready. It would be horrible if she couldn't go. So not only did we see the doctor about her immunizations, but her pooping problem as well. Lets just say that it's been a long 6 days! And it's not nearly over yet. I am frazzled. I think going to the doctor is a pain in my behind. I mean, it takes forever. For instance....we waited for an hour to see the Doc today. And when I'm toting around a little 2 year old sister, who is supposed to be good, and quiet too, it's just more fun! And hospitals.....not my favorite either! After our 2 hours in the doctors office today, we had to pay a visit to the hospital for xrays. We had to see if the regiment we had given this weekend had done it's job. So we were basically doing crappy stuff from 11am to 3pm today.

Oh yeah, and side note.....they have lost some of her immunization records, so we have to do them over. They gave her 5 shots today!

But at last....Success! The doctor called, and the xrays were good. Yea! Phase one is complete. For now.... Now to keep it up. Keep her going every day, in the potty. Changing the doses, so that we don't have messes every hour. Training her to go like everyone else who is normal. I've got to admit, that once I was home, and the stress of the day got to me, that I just cried to Chris. I hate the hard days of being a Mom. But I'll tell you that changing your soon to be 5 year olds diapers are not fun either. That phase of her life, should have been over a long time ago.

So yes, I am a wimp! I am doing something I probably should have done a long time ago. But the fear of it being hard has made me let it slide. But in 2 months, my little girl needs to go to school, and she needs to get on with her life!! I hope we have figured this out by then......